Pictureless

For some reason most things I've been doing lately just don't turn out how I want them to. It is starting to get on my nerves and I feel it's not long before I give up completely or at least for a while.
The most upsetting probably is that I had bought a new 35 mm with 36 exposures, an amount that I rarely do because it just takes too long to fill it up. Plus developing 36 exposures puts too much strain on my pockets, ha. Before I bought it I didn't take into consideration my luck or more like the lack of it..

The film developed completely empty.

And it wasn't my fault because I always check if I've loaded the film correctly. And I always do it correctly.

I had so many potentionally good pictures on there. Christmas, friend's birthday, some awesome school stuff, an exhibition, friends, me. I thought I'd gotten over being upset about it but I looked at my camera today and I got upset again.

And that isn't even a good enough reason to be upset for so long.

So my plan is to get a new film tomorrow. 12 exposures this time to check if I still remember how to use it. Which I highly doubt but we'll see.




The second upsetting thing is that I can't draw anymore. At least not the way I want to and/or used to. It's just not working out for me for some reason. It almost feels like I need a break from everything art related and have some time to reconsider things. That'd be great if I could do that but having school creeping over my shoulder, there's little to no chance I could do that until summer break. I feel like this semester is going to end pretty badly.