Fix it (2)

It's 1st of September already and I haven't got a clue how did the time pass so quickly since my last post.

As it's not all that surprising with me, I haven't really fixed anything I mentioned in my last post.
I find it amusing.
Sure, I've reintroduced myself to my own music and I did find a job so that I would occupy myself and be less depressed from day to day. I do love my job, I really do. The money is also a cute extra and surely will keep me happy for a while(as absurd as it is).

I've been trying to be happier and nicer to people and I think I'm doing quite well but there are still times(mostly when alone in my room) when I completely feel like giving up because I can't find a purpose for anything I do. It's stupid and a waste of time, these thoughts... But I've learnt to at least control them a little bit and suppress during the day. I suppose I could say I'm a little bit more tolerant around people. And I don't let myself get sad over things I have no control over. I understand that it's not worth it and all I'm doing is wasting my time I've been given to live this life.


As for art.. Nothing's changed. Still don't feel anything, still can't draw anything that satisfies me. I know I'm not trying hard enough but I'll take one thing at a time. I'm certain I'll get back to it at some point because I've spent most of my life drawing and painting, and I can't imagine quitting completely.